Be Like Horton

Content Note: This essay discusses terminal domestic assault against/murder of trans people, street harassment of gender non-conforming individual, and discussion of forms of interpersonal violence and our individual right to ask for and receive help, and our responsibility collective to respond.
[This post should be dated both Feb 1 and March 1. It is an updated version of something I wrote on a private social media account.]
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February 1, 2018
Last Saturday I attended a memorial service with a hundred other people for Christa Leigh Steele-Knudslien, a local trans woman who was murdered by her husband. We sang and cried and bore witness to one another’s pain. Some of us who knew her well and personally, others of us who’d crossed her path and who considered her part of our community were there to respect her life and the lives of those who loved her.  We mourned simultaneously in the collective solitude of a service in a Unitarian Universalist church.
 
Two hours later, still wearing my white dress shirt, grey vest and tie, I went shopping for my  parents. A 20-something white man was walking toward me on the sidewalk as I stepped my carefully polished dress shoes around a puddle and moved toward the grocery store entrance. He first stared at me, then snarled, hocked and spit.
 
He turned his head to spit, before he again met my gaze, so I guess that’s something.
 
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I recently spent some time on sexuality, consent, and puberty education with some older elementary school students, one of many schools I work with. We talked about consent and bodily autonomy every single day. There was a particular day focused on sexual harassment and assault. The news about the behavior of famous people and #MeToo has made it impossible not to talk about this with 4th graders.  Or rather, it was always necessary, but now it’s nearly impossible for adults to deny that reality.

They had been working on the music from Horton Hears a Who to present to the younger students, so I tied it into the lesson.  It’s not what problematic fave Dr. Seuss meant when he wrote it, but that’s why I love reinterpreting material in new contexts.  The students sang the song through, and certain segments of the song several times through the lesson.  I used it to break up the anxiety and difficulty of the lesson, to engage their vagus nerves to help calm and ground everyone, and made Horton into a giant ongoing metaphor.

(If you are unfamiliar, or don’t remember it, here are two options for experiencing this work. A narrated abridged version with music and the pictures on youtube, a version that is a read version of the whole text with audio but no pictures on youtube here, and a text only version here.)

We talked about how the Whos in Whoville told and told until someone heard and helped them. We talked about Horton, the elephant who heard the Whos and carefully bore witness to them, tried to rescue them and keep them safe — he tried and tried to help them until he figured out how. They told and told and told.

The students asked things like, “But why would someone *do* that?” about sexual harassment and assault. They were mystified. Elementary students I work with aren’t always as mystified as this group was, sometimes that question comes more from hurt than surprised confusion.

This group believed me when I said to “tell and tell until someone helps you, because the grownups will want to help.” All of the students I work with don’t always believe this.  They have not always experienced grownups helping, and have all too often experienced grownups being the ones doing the hurting.

This is why we have to say “tell and tell and tell until someone helps you.” I didn’t tell them that a lot of people like Horton’s jungle neighbors don’t believe there’s a problem, or don’t do anything, or contribute to the ignorance and pain. As they age they will learn this truth. They did not need to learn it as part of this particular lesson.
 
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Last week someone said, “What does domestic violence have to do with trans issues?” The  question is often asked the other way.  “What do trans people have to do with domestic violence?”

One answer is that violence against any women, trans or cis, (in fact violence against anyone) is a trans issue because we oppose a world that is made up of systems and structures, of powers and principalities that say that there is always and only one right way to be or do and the punishment for noncompliance with that one right way is death. 

One answer is because we oppose world views that identify power as something that should be wielded for coercion and control, rather than shared and nurtured for community well-being.

We understand that the impulse to spit over someone’s non-traditional gender presentation is on the same playing field as sexual harassment of an employee is on the same field with the impulse to strike a child who talks back is on the same field with the impulse to injure someone because of a lack of compliance over the dishes or laundry or sex or gender identity.


Another answer is that relationship violence, intimate partner violence, domestic violence have to do with trans issues and vice versa because research clearly shows that transgender people are disproportionately affected by the violence in intimate partner relationships, and if they report, they are disproportionately not served or are even harmed by those who should help.
 
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Today we receive word that two trans women in Albuquerque may have been murdered. They have been missing for two weeks and are currently listed by police as “endangered people” after blood but no bodies were found in their home. They would be the third and fourth trans women this year identified as such to have been murdered this year in the US. Or perhaps the third, and a surviving roommate. Or perhaps two injured people. Police are still investigating. Money is being collected for either funeral expenses or healing expenses. Was this an invasion? A domestic situation? We don’t know. But we know that harm has happened, to one or two people who are members of one of the most vulnerable populations in North America.
 
We’re only a month into the year.
 
[March 1: The two trans women’s bodies were found two weeks after I wrote this. A man who had access to their home and may have been a housemate was arrested two weeks after that, and charged with murder on March 1.
The press is reporting about their identities in inconsistent ways, but local members of their community indicate they both identified as trans.]
 
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Street harassment, domestic violence, intimate partner violence, sexual harassment, sexual assault. It’s all about the same stuff. It’s about a system of power and control that makes some This is an image of a beach. There is a pull quote from the article which reads, ""I am calling us to refuse those impulses to exert power over others when those impulses appear in ourselves, and resist and oppose them when they appear in others. It's simple, but not easy. Be Like Horton, CB, Justice and Peace Consultingpeople believe they can and should decide what other people should do with their lives and bodies, and that these people can and should replace the will of others with their own, by force if necessary. A system of power and control that makes some people believe that if others won’t indicate compliance by forcing their own identity or behavior or gender into rigid scripts and boxes that have been defined by that person who has more power, then that powerful person ultimately has the right to harm them and even take their life.

Whether those powerful people in any given situation are adults, or men, or cis people, or wealthy partners, or white people, or generic high-powered bosses with all or some of these intersections of privilege might vary circumstantially but the underlying problem is entitlement to decide that their desires and ideas are more important than someone else’s and that they have the right to impose their will to enforce that.

 
We can talk another time about what I mean about the system, there’s certainly lots to say about that, but today I want to say that almost all of us at some point in our lives are Whos in Whoville. That’s a given. And when that was you who was hurt and needed or needs help, please hear me that I’m sorry that harm was done to you, you did not deserve that, that shouldn’t have happened, it wasn’t your fault, and let’s find help

And some of us are Horton, and some of us are the uncaring, disbelieving neighbors. We might not mean to be, and it might be because we did not understand, but our behavior has too often been underwhelming or even outright harmful.  We get to make a change now.
And some of us are all of these characters in this accidental metaphor at different times in our lives. We live with the complexity of interpersonal violence and advocacy and help, of self care and care for other.
And we all have choices about which character to be and what to do when someone tells and we are asked to respond.
 

What we have to do – what I am calling us to – is refuse those impulses to exert power over others when those impulses appear in ourselves, and resist and oppose them when they appear in others. It’s simple but not easy. We can bear witness to people’s lives, and deaths. We can bear witness to the collective grief of a people who are targeted both within and without their homes. And we can interrupt beliefs and behavior that contribute to that vulnerabilty and violence.

Horton did not know the Whos.  He did not understand the ways their lives were both similar to and different from his. He did not need to fully understand them to help them.  He only needed to decide that they were worth helping, and that he himself was worth being a person who helps.

Let me say that again, k?

We can take a deep breath and recognize that none of these things stop happening if we don’t talk about them. In fact, adult sexual, intimate partner, and domestic violence, (as well as child abuse,) these are all forms of interpersonal violence that thrive in silence, in pretense. These gain power in the brief but clear thought many readers had a few paragraphs ago that it must have been in [a “bad” neighborhood] that someone spit because of my gender presentation, that it wouldn’t have happened in [my “good” neighborhood.] They lose power every time we tell the truth and believe survivors. And we can intervene in many different ways in situations where control and violence are harming someone near us. We can make these choices.

 
If someone is hurting you or someone you know, you can anonymously call 1−800−799−7233, or go to www.thehotline.org if internet use is private and safe for you. They can help you and help you get in touch with your local organization dedicated to helping people who are not safe in their homes. There is help available for you to help figure out your options. Tell and tell and tell until someone helps you.
 
The rest of us are going to be like Horton.
 
Right?
 
No really, I’m asking. Right?
 

We are all going to be like Horton, the elephant who heard the Whos and carefully bore witness to them and kept them safe and tried to rescue them — he tried and tried and tried to help them until he figured out how.

 

Bodies are Awesome. All the bodies. All the sizes. All the shapes. All the abilities.

Sometimes when I’m teaching Awesomely Awkward, my puberty education series, a young person will say that there’s something wrong with their/someone’s body. It’s too fat/thin/tall/busty/flat/short… all the things young people have been taught (already!) about what society says bodies are supposed to be like.  I thank them for saying that, because “oh my gosh, people say stuff like that all the time, right!? And now that someone’s said it, we can talk about this! Yay!  I love this part!” And I whip out these photos of Olympic and Paralympic athletes. In class, I have many versions of them both on projector and printed on card stock they can hold in their hands and look at. When I pass them out, they know that I really do love this part.

image credit Howard Schatz. Click for larger image. Learn more about his work and buy the amazing book here https://howardschatz.com/books/athlete/
This image is of eight paralympians. They are posed in a way that is confident and strong.
credit: http://disabilityhorizons.com/2012/08/paralympic-games-2012-disability-horizons-definitive-guide/

I tell the young people to “find a body that might have been similar in some ways to yours when they were your age. Don’t tell us which one you’re thinking of. Imagine what that person’s body was like when they were your age. Remember, puberty is only maybe starting to happen.” I tell them, “just think quietly inside your head right now.”  [If there is someone in the class with low-vision or who is blind, I ask the children to describe the photos in detail, and I supplement their descriptions to fully demonstrate the entire spectrum of bodies displayed and substitute accurate and appropriate language when needed.]

Then I ask these questions:

  • Now think about all of these bodies when they were your age. What do you think people said to them?  About them?
  • What do you imagine that felt like? Why do you think that’s what it feels like?
  • What would it take for them to decide to be strong in their body, maybe even to be an athlete?  What kind of thinking would they need to do?
  • What kind of friends would they need around them when they were 11 and they wanted to do something strong with their body?  What would those friends say?  How would those friends behave?
  • Would what the friends said and how they acted be any different if these people, when they were 11 or 12, had bodies that weren’t ever going to be world class athletes, but they still wanted to do something strong and brave with their bodies?  What would be the same? What would be different?
  • What kind of friend are you?  How can you be that kind of friend for each other, the kind that says encouraging things about bravery and strength, and doesn’t talk about whether a body is good or not?

Bodies are awesome. Everyone should get one.  Oh, wait.

That’s my favorite line I ever made up ever.

All bodies can’t do all the things. Some bodies move easily, some bodies move slowly or with discomfort and pain or in directions that weren’t intended, but all bodies can experience pleasure and can do something strong and brave.  Our job as good grownups is to support young people to find out the ways their body is strong and brave. 

Perhaps your child is not in my class. You can do this with children in your life. Look through these pictures and talk about all the different types of bodies that athletes have, how different they are, what people might have told them about their bodies when they were your child’s age, how powerful they all are. All of them. Give your children an image of something different from what the media gives them. These are real people with really strong bodies that all appear and move differently.  Obviously we aren’t all world-class athletes. Almost all of us are not world-class athletes, I’m certainly not. But we all have bodies, and we all live in a world that assesses our worth by what our bodies look like based on a bogus standard of body that doesn’t actually exist. (I’ll talk about body image and air brushing photos in another blog post another time.)

And when your child is 5 or 8 or 13 and says their body is wrong because it’s too skinny/too fat/too tall/too short/too disabled, haul these photos out and remember with them that bodies are awesome.  All the bodies are all the awesome, and we don’t know when we’re 5 or 8 or 13 what amazing things our bodies will learn to do as we grow.

Welcome to my blog

I thought about giving this post a witty title, but decided to go old school.

This is a test of the emergency omg I have to write a blog now system.

If this were a true emergency, I would likely be saying things like, “pump your brakes” or “fill your tub with water just in case,” or “take a couple of things out of the freezer then shut it tight till the electricity comes back on.”

But it isn’t.  It’s a test.

The most fun so far (by which I mean not fun at all) is that I can’t find this page when I look for it.  I mean, I see it here right now as I type “A New Post” but when I hit publish, I can’t find it.  Kind of like sex education, if you think about it.  What we learn in a nice linear fashion, with bells, whistles, jokes, asides, pictures, graphs, and demonstration materials becomes just so much blahblahblah when we get up close and personal with someone for the first time.  We can’t find the page.  We can’t remember where we put the protection.  We struggle to remember that consent is ongoing, and that means being able to find the page again and again and again and make sure our partner is on the same one.

Weak metaphor or no?

It’s what I’ve got.

Welcome to my blog, welcome to my brain.